Tuesday, May 25, 2010

June 7th will be the next chapter in my life book.
I've been dealing with endometriosis for 14 years. I'd been told I would never have children because of diabetes and endometriosis. I was so blessed to have a son at the age of 20. He was not an easy child to bring into this world but he has always been willful, adorable, kindhearted and incredibly competitve. Nick and I were blessed to get pregnant again in 2003 but circumstances beyond our control took our baby girl before she was ready for the life we were ready to give. Everything happens for a reason and in the next years we grew closer as a family. Nick and I both grew in our professional lives and Nicolas was begining to grow through education and become a sociLly more mature young boy. On May 22, 2008 I was given the most shocking news ever. I was told that I was pregnant! At that point Nicolas was 9 years old and Nick and I didn't think we would be blessed to have anymore children. 4 days later I turned 30 and Nick surprised me with a trip to the Hotel Del on Coronado Island. It was such a great vacation and that was when we decided to show Nicolas the ultra sound pictures of the baby we would be having. He was so excited. As excited a 9 year old can get.
Nick was then informed that he was being hired as the HR director for the Central Region. So we then moved to Chicago, Elmhurst, IL to be exact, and bought our first house in August 2008. Isabella Marie Mendibles was born 12/23/2008. She weighed 9.03 lbs. It was a high stress birth for Bella and I but we both made it out alive.
We were only in IL for 19 months but it was enough time for Nick and I to realize that family has to come first. We realized we wanted to work to live not live to work. So Nick took a step down on the corporate ladder and we up and moved to Oceanside, CA. Nick's back to working for Brian, Nick's mentor.
We are here and I am now dealing with the pain from endometriosis. I did want to have a third baby but at thus point I have to get over that and realize that for te benefit of the two children I have I must feel okay. I can't be the mom I want to be if I don't feel good. So I will not give birth to anymore children in hopes of beating this disease that has ruled my life fo way too long. I know it can only get better because in all honesty it can't get much worse. My two beautiful children are blessings that so many woman with this horrible disease never get to experience. I'm so lucky to have my Mom who is able to come and help me and my Step Dad who undertands and just goes with it when it comes to everything the Mendibles family has gone through. I'm more scared about staying in the hospital than I am about the surgery but my Mom and Nick will keep me company and I will get through thus next ordeal.